I was looking through old pictures.
And i cried so damn hard for so damn long, my family has fallen apart to absolutely nothing.
it really is just me and my brother now.
we might as well be living on other sides of the world.
and then i go to places like natalie’s, where her family actually talks and laughs and hugs and i can become part of a home for a little while,
because when i walk in here, it’s just a house.
you’re as tameless as an ocean.
I wanna hold you but commotion-oh yeah it ravages me, whole.
oh and me!
I’m as dramatic as the thunder
my lightening scares her as she rolls over;
oh yeah she needs to get some sleep
Fuck you for making yourself all I think about.
And fuck me for being such a pussy.
Every day I don’t talk to you I gradually feel more and more horrible about myself.
Every day I see you burning holes through the back of my head and I’m too fucking pussy to turn around and talk to you.
I’m not letting this happen again.
I have to give us a chance.
llololololololol.
so, last night. our school had a dance to keep us off the streets so we don’t..ya know…mischief. usually no one shows up to these things, but last night…1000 kids showed up. mhm. and those were just the ones that were actually FROM our school and didn’t sneak in. 1000 kids from all grades, WASTED, in the campus center, smoking joints on the dance floor, basically having sex, wearing almost nothing…tried to dance. couldn’t move. probably have aids now. can’t even recall the amount of times i was unwillingly grinded upon. the majority of sweat on my body was not mine. but it was absolutely hilarious, because as one of the few mildly sober people, you could legitimately do whatever the fuck you wanted because no one would remember. I got proposed to, and me and lindsey fucked with so. many. people. someone got arrested, dance ended early, multiple kids sent to the hospital to get their stomachs pumped, multiple people suspended, and someone slapped a teacher across the face.
I’m still pretty mindfucked over what the fuckityfuck happened.
but maybe you had to be there.
you should have, whoever is reading this. (COUGHNOONECOUGH)
you really should have.
just realized about 90% of my tumblr is movies.
no. life.
lolacaust.
I have friends I swear.
